I say mildly because the antidepressants make me chiller than usual. Quite honestly I don't give a damn anyway. Just need to clear off my chest in a more elaborate way.
Where I come from and as well as the people involved, family is the most important thing in your life. We all know why, but it seems as though when I came to the US that it may fall in a different category. I've met people who are estranged or just completely pushed out of their families. I can understand it here because people have different ideas of what matters to them. But when your from a small island you tend to forgive and forget if you've been wronged by a family member. This is why I don't understand where the current events of my family drama comes from. Now when I say family I am not talking about immediate, extended for those of you who don't grasp that everyone is immediate not just Mom, Dad, and siblings. Everyone knows that the person has had many issues period. I have already given up on trying to get along. People aren't counted as family to me anymore because drama persists and for no rational reason at all. We all have the instigators and those who keep that fire going, but shit people! GROW THE FUCK UP AND GET OVER YOURSELF!
Person #1 you probably have never experienced true happiness in your life and I feel sorry for you. You have to constantly be in a battle with someone to take your frustrations out. You need help and have to want help to get better. You hold grudges which have no grounds to even be realistic, you create reasons out of nothing to hate people. You take advantage when people try and help you but as soon as your done, reasons to hate them pop up again. Your just a sad person and I no longer care to consider you as family. We may share blood but I would not help you to save your life. And I'm saddened by that statement because I do cherish family above all else.
Person #2 you are just as sad as person #1. If things don't go your way you make a fuss with others to satisfy your need to make yourself look better. You never finish anything meaningful and I feel bad for the child you are bringing into the world. You are vain and self indulgent. You always try and make yourself look better than others when in reality your just a sad little girl. I've tried to care for you but there are just way too many things that tell me otherwise. You've always been selfish, ignorant, and just an overall bitch. You also use others till you are done and throw them away as if they are trash.
Person #3 you should have never come into this family. I often believe person 1 and 2 would have been better off without you. Your probably on the top of the list in hell.
I truly feel hurt and sadden by this and I hate saying anything bad about people. But when you have nothing good to say about a person, what else is there. Not once have I even seen or had anything good to say about these people in my life, and they are family. They have been with me all my life and even now, nothing good about them is coming to mind. I'm sorry but I'm officially done.
Stuff like this saddens me but then I look at my life and know that I've already got people who are proud of me and love me. I've lived my life to where someone would have to really think about something bad to say. I am not saying I'm perfect, because I'm not. But I keep to myself (other than what I say here) and treat people how I want to be treated. It's not hard to be nice to people. Just smile and brush off their attitude because at the end of the day, your the one who can still laugh at silly things and know that you had a good day because you stay on the high road.
Sorry for the long post but I just had a lot to say this time. Though I do not like being medicated, I have been able to see things a bit clearer without my emotions in the way. Plus the side effects are lessening so I'm better.
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