Stupid on top of more stupid

Lets just say... I messed up. On 2 occasions. In a row... 

Depression and self destructive tendencies never leave my side.

That escalated quickly

So I had a good weekend but a shitty Monday. 

Went to pick up the now ex BF on Friday. Went to the state fair on Saturday. Awesome Seahawks game Sunday. I go home for the night because I work on Monday and a small fit ensues. Monday I send a text with no response all day and then boom, large fit which ended in a breakup. I'm hurting and still getting bitched at because "I didn't spend time with him". I need a guy with ZERO drama and baggage. I'm too old for immature people who are selfish and don't understand that responsible people do responsible things, like sleep because they work in the morning and my place is 15 minutes away from work instead of an hour away and would only get at most 4 hours of sleep. I'm over this.

If your gonna make me out to be a bitch then at least I got to go to a very spendy game and enjoy myself.

Tonight

My guy will be home in minutes and spend the weekend with me and his boy. Just gotta say I'm an excited little girl.

Well...

It feels weird to be all giddy when you have someone you like, like you back, not be around. I'm sad that we don't see eachother like a couple should but I am also extremely happy he is doing something to make his and his child's life better. The emotions are ther but the physical attention is comepletely lost. But once we see eachother, I dunno about him, it's like I don't wanna stop. Can't say for sure that it's all the right call though. There are still some things that raise some flags but those all get shot out the door when I am with him. I just wish his school wasn't so far away.

I have also had my new set of wheels for almost a week now. Took a small trip to the base of Mount St. Helens and it did it's job. Almost at 300 miles on one tank of gas and still have some to spare. I'm really enjoying my Subaru. Still need a name though. Stickers are in the mail so I can add some of my flare to it.

Aside from that, not much has gone down since I last updated. Went to the RedBull soapbox derby that hasn't been in Seattle for 7 years. Made up with the Ex's family and got to see my niece. My BF will be back for a short vacation to see his son, which I would love to see both of them. Really not much else.

Oh and I got a new tattoo, Big sister.