Interesting day

So far all is well at work. School started back up again, not feeling it though. 

Yesterday I get to work and start working on correcting a chart. There was a strange buzz in the air and lights just went out. The transformer outside blew and I saw it all. It was pretty cool, except for the power being out for 2 hours. We caught up on things that needed to be done then once the power came on it was a scramble. I enjoyed it. 

Good Week

Had Labor Day off but got paid for it. I go back on Tuesday and the Dr. and Manager tell me that they are glad I'm there and give me complements. I need to be less hard on myself but still expect the best from myself. On Friday my co-worker said she was happy I was there too. We get out pretty quickly because I help out with the cleaning. But I messed up on something which brought my confidence down. Though I needed it. I need to make sure not to ever get over confident. 

I've been going to the gym again and almost everyday to boot. Well almost everyday. I've missed 2 days already but today I forgot that they close early on weekends. 

Today was nice though, I spent time with my ex. We just went for brunch and hung out for a bit. It was nice but I really need to remember that it's over and he wants to stay single for a while. I do miss him though. 

Breathe

That's what I've been telling myself for the past couple weeks. After the Whistler trip I stopped my meds, been a wreck so now I'm back on them. 

Somehow I passed my Dental classes with A's and a B+ for math. How that happened I have no idea but I'm not going to fight it. Money for the DANB came out so I should be receiving a letter in the mail saying I can go take my test. 

I've been on a Supernatural binge and that's what has kept me occupied for the past couple of weeks. After I'm done with that I think I'll try out Bones again but we'll see. 

Since getting paychecks every week this month I have been trying to pay off a few things but I need to cut my spending again. Coffee shops are my weakness these past few days. 

As for my love life, I really don't have one. Been avoiding a few things and now it's more like a friend with occasional possible mistakes. It's really over but you can't just forget 6 years. Who knows, maybe in the end it may work out but that's just me hoping for something that looks like its wishful thinking. I took myself off the rollacoster and so my meds are keeping me steady for now. All I can do for now is work on myself and completing my goals.

End of Week 6

This week has been kind of in the middle of good and bad. Felt like crying on Tuesday after most of my procedures. I felt like I was screwing up everything, and it's only with one doctor. But other than that the weeks been good. Got my first paycheck yesterday. Went to Quesadilla Factory to celebrate. 

End of Week 5

First day of the week was a bit scary but awesome. The first thing I was told was that I was going to be unsupervised starting that day. So for the rest of the day I was left on my own unless I needed the help. I was good I thought, but I did mess up a few times. I had the last patient of the day and I had to switch because the lead assistant needed to talk with me. I started on payroll that day. I was so excited and happy. It just made my week, and since the doctors are going to be on vacation I was able to leave work early. Not so good on the paycheck but since I have been working every day it is worth it. 

So really not much this week except that I am now a full-time employee at the office and after only 4 weeks of hard work I proved myself useful which makes me really happy!

End of Week 4

Quite a tiring week. School was up for an accreditation review and we had to be examples of how well they are training/teaching us. Needless to say we are still good for another 7 years. Broke down in the middle of the week because of stress and fatigue. This new medication is kicking my butt. Today I was told that I was doing really good chairside. I had someone watching but she gave me no hints unless I was running behind. By the last patient she wasn't even in the room. I only had to call on her once because both I and the doctor didn't know where something was. I am hoping for the same response from the other doctor. I have another 4 weeks and I am hoping to continue to excel and prove my worth to the office and keep them interested in me. 

At least this weekend will hopefully be fun. Hempfest is happening in downtown Olympia. My cousin and I are supposed to go so I am looking forward to it because I need me some relaxer. We'll see I guess.

End of 3rd Week

So I've been at my office for 3 weeks now. I've gotten the hang of most of the computer stuff, sterilization and questions pre-op. I'm still working on the important stuff chairside. I seem to do well with Dr. Behnen and I'm a bit scared of Dr. Goerig. I seem to get along with all the other dental assistants and I'm working on the office staff. But so far I feel like I'm doing good but should have already had a few things down that I'm still struggling with. 

The week following my trip to Whistler, I had this horrible cough. So much so that I had to take this Monday off. Since I took it off I went to the doctors because when I usually have a cold or flu where I cough it only lasts about 3 days at most. And this was going on 2 weeks. Turns out I had a pretty bad sinus infection. I also wanted to know why I was feeling so drained and fuzzy all the time. Someone suggested to check my thyroid. So I had blood work done to check that and to see if I was anemic. I found out Yesterday that I will be on meds for hypothyroidism and need blood work again in 2 months. The joy of the past couple weeks. For now I'm still a bit laggy when it comes to thought processing and speaking but I'm hoping I get back to normal soon. 

Aside from that, still working at Dish and that puts me at roughly 50+ hours working and schooling. I swear this is probably why I have health issues. Once the year is over I can finally relax, hopefully!!

Something to look forward to

Note: this was written in June, and didn't publish till now because it was on my phone.

These last 2 weeks have been both amazing and dumb. 

Spent last week studying for Finals and getting ready for graduation. But the one thing I forgot to mention was that I received an email from my teacher about an available job at my dream office. So I turned in a resume. The next few days were filled with self doubt and feeling like I wouldn't hear anything; also wondering who my competition was from my class. I soon get a call to interview this past week. Feel like things went great, except one major foot in my mouth moment. When it came to answering what my expected pay would be I just remembered someone saying that if its less than (blank) amount hourly that we should look into other offices. They pause and look at each other and have a small discussion. My eyes get big and immediately say "I'll take whatever you choose to pay me since I'm not experienced". Now I walk out from what still seemed like a great interview. So I am just filled with the thought that I said too much and failed horribly. 2 days later I get a call back saying I got the job! I just about jump out of my shoes and screamed in the isle, I was working of course. The only thing is I will train during externship which is about 8 weeks, unpaid. I will be out on payroll right after, this is because I haven't taken the certification test yet. So I have a job right out of school, amazing!!

Now on the poopy end, mainly having to work in Federal Way for the last 4 days and not having any gas to actually be doing this. I got more hours but it was not worth the drive. 

Mini Vacation

So my "Summer" break consisted of working. Ex-BF, me and my sister are on a small trip to Whistler again from today till Sunday. If all goes right at the border then we will be there. 

Update on if we made it later...

Week 1 Complete

So this week was the start of my externship/training. Lots of hard work but I'll be fine. Monday was the most scared I was. Thanks to Tuesdays clinic I was reminded that I could do this. Then the rest of the week went by pretty well. I assisted in 3 RCTs which the 1 today was awesome because the abscess was draining from the prep. It was great. I'm extremely happy that I'm learning everything and so far not really messing up all the time. 

First week of my career, loving it!

College Grad!

Yesterday is the start of yet a new stage in life. I graduated with all my girls and we are awesome.

I did it!! Made it through a long process and came out whole! Making people proud left and right!

Finals Completed

Finally done, a year of hard work finished! I did it!!!

Dental Assisting Class 2012-2013!!

Week 10 Complete

Wow it's been awhile, been so busy with school that I haven't gotten around to updating. This week will be finals week, then Friday is graduation. 1 year of hard work finally paying off. 

In other news, I got my tattoo finally! I'm not 100% happy with it but its still amazing. A good memorial and where I'm from kind of tattoo. I just wish I would have stuck with my original thought on the Guam seal in the shell. It's what I get for not opening my mouth. 

We had a baby shower for one of the girls in our class. It was great fun and I'm excited for her!

Week 5 Complete

About half way through the quarter. It's going by so quickly. Just tired all the time.

Week 4 Complete~

This week is the start of my moving to my parents, going to miss my independence and my own place. The Ex and I got a storage unit for all our junk.

Schools about average. Nothing bad or good.

Oh and the caramel apple spice cold is amazing!!!

Week 3 Complete~

The week went by too quickly, I had my first visitation and mini breakdown. The visitation went well, was there at 7am and just watched how 1 assistant ran the show. She was very good at what she did. School went on as normal, first tests seem to have been poopy but I will redeem myself.

The breakup is still rough. We talk from time to time and he does want to get back together it is just dependant on when he figures his stuff out. I plan on moving out of here soon though.

Week 2 Complete~

Still doing good, lots of studying and need to catch up on the readings. Feel good about the 2 tests this week too. Got my visitation at a general dentist on Monday. Also have an interview at a classmates workplace. It'll be a caregiver job and I'm not sure about it but to be honest it's way better than what I'm doing now.

Week 1 Complete~

Well, it went by quick and pretty fun to be honest. I feel like I got my groove back for studying and focus. I'm definitely getting better grades this quarter than last. I finished a few on my later homework this week. I have 2-3 tests this week and I need to read a few chapters. I will try to get that all done tonight. Going to skip a few plans to do so.

Love life still rough but it's getting better.

Spring Quarter Start~

Was a easy day surprisingly. Materials III lab for 4 hours, made 3 different models with Gypsum. It was actually really fun. Science II seems like it'll be more work than last time. Was a pretty good day to be honest.

Grades Posted

Worst quarter ever!! All I have to say.

Winter Quarter Complete

Been a lot of changes since my last post. Not sure if I could get to all of them but lets see.

School: hoping for improvements but not much change. Took my last final today and am glad to be back in bed. Had some extra credit points for 1 teachers class which I'm hoping raised my grade up enough to pass. Still quite the loner from what I've noticed again. I like that I'm the quiet observer.

Work: nonexistent as far as I'm concerned. I haven't had work in 2 weeks going on 3. I need to put some stuff together and see if I can get another job possibly. I hate jumping around but I'm sick of not being able to pay for anything.

Home: well, I need to start back at the gym to get some results. Better eating habits or at least grab stuff that doesn't require dishes. BF and I are no longer. His decisions have been rash as of late and I have not had any benefit of it. I broke it off and I guess you could say we are in limbo. We do love each other and want to work it out but again, his decisions have all been for the worse. Granted there was no hostility, violence, cheating or growth apart to cause this separation. On my end I just want him to know there is a possibility that I will not always be there and to take the relationship seriously. I'm not a wife or a mother and I can barely take care of myself, I shouldn't have to do everything and not get anything in return. My life has been one big ball of stress for the last few months due to school and so I haven't been the best GF but if anything I am making it so life will be just a tad bit easier.

Anyway I need to nap for a bit. Good day.

Long, long week

Monday: Came to class to practice radiographs and get cleared, accomplished it on the second try. Was supposed to meet with a personal trainer at 24 Hour Fitness, ended up having to reschedule due to miscommunication on their part. I thought it was awesome because I had to leave to Cowlitz county to pay BFs speeding deferral. So I left class 5 mins early and was probably docked 5 points for the day. We end up finishing that pretty quickly and decide to go down to Portland to Voodoo Doughnuts and get some delicious treats. We looked around for a place to eat and found this place called The Slide Inn, which was just opening their doors. We were the only ones there for at least 1/2 an hour. The meal was great and the night was fun. Slept the whole way home after that.

Tuesday: Came in early again but this time by choice. I had scheduled 2 appointments for coronal polishes on my 2 friends. Needless to say it was interesting doing it back to back. They left with nice clean teeth! Class went on as usual. Went to the gym and met with the trainer, she was fun and really nice, she kicked my butt though. We did circuit training and I was so very sore.

Wednesday: To be quite honest I don't remember much of that day. I'm pretty sure I slept in since it was open lab.

Thursday: I went to class early then realized I was supposed to be in the morning classes Friday. I left and spent 2 hours at DSHS meeting with someone about food assistance. Once I got that settled I returned to class and studied for the big radiology test that ended up being way easier than we expected.

Today: Got 1 project out of the way, worked on another that never got started, took 2 tests and finished 1 evaluation. BF wants me to go to the gym tonight but we just had our couples therapy again and I'm just mentally exhausted and want to pass out. So good night!!

Oh and my hours have been cut dramatically. About to ask for my old job back! I'm pissed!!

Week 8 Complete

So glad it's over. It's definitely lasted too long. But now it's time for the work weekend.

BF and I had our first couples therapy meeting, I think it went well. We aren't in bad terms so its easy. Either way its off to the gym then a nice night. Oh and yes I renewed my 24 Fitness membership.

Week 8 Start~

I really haven't been on top of anything for a long time. I'm always tired by the time I get home and try to push myself to stay up till at least 10 pm. BF and I are working on a few things along with a bit of help from my therapist.

I got to see my niece today, she is so cute! Cabesa side all the way!

Work is still the same, slow and no sales. It's quite annoying.

Hopefully this week isn't too rough.

Week 6 Complete

Well, poop.

This whole week went by in a blur and not in a good way. So no recap.

Loved that I got to see my Auntie and my cousins though!!

What...

Do you do when you continue to come to the same conclusion regardless of how painful it might be. Not for the chance of someone new, but because you want your own well being to come first before others. To not be dragged down to a point where you start to question yourself on what you believe and think. For the longest time I knew that a clash of thoughts and background would mess with the situation. That the more controlling which could be that of a father or a possessive lover would lead to so much resentment. When the "jokes" begin to stick rather than laugh about. When you bring up what the problem is and it's no ones fault but yours. When you come home from school or work and just want to relax but can't because you have to meet the needs of someone else. I've planned my future when I decided to go to school. I'm fulfilling that plan no matter what, even if I have to be exhausted and hungry to achieve it.

So many thoughts, too sad and tired to think anymore.

Start Week 5

It's been a pretty rough couple of weeks. Sick and missing class, struggling to catch up & not selling at work. Just rough.

I've gotten a few things caught up and and will try to work on things tonight. I can check out the PowerPoints as well.

As for work, I'm getting the hourly but if I sold more then I would be less worried.

I'm excited because I bought a Crockpot and will use it soon. We'll be making a chicken & cheese casserole.

I just hope that this week goes smoothly.

Week 3 Complete, Barely

Lack up updates equal lack of time for ANYTHING. Work is work, school is school. Been sick this whole week and missed 3 days total.

New Hobby

So, I've found a nifty little hobby that will keep my busy on those days I don't want to read manga or watch anime. Crochet and maybe some knitting. My first project was a loom knit baby beanie. I thought of my niece and was extremely excited about it. Results turned out good and she loved it! Now to try an adult sized one!

Start Winter 13'

First day went too quickly. I was happy because now the hard part starts back up. 1 less class than last quarter so it won't be as rough I hope. I worked out and made an effort to work harder than usual. We'll see how this quarter and year goes!

Happy New Year!!

Glad to welcome 2013 with my love and friends. Hopefully this year will be good! I have no resolutions because I make goals. I haven't completed my list yet but I'm sure I can knock out a few of them within the next few months.

School starts tomorrow so I have to get my butt in gear!