Week 8 Complete

So glad it's over. It's definitely lasted too long. But now it's time for the work weekend.

BF and I had our first couples therapy meeting, I think it went well. We aren't in bad terms so its easy. Either way its off to the gym then a nice night. Oh and yes I renewed my 24 Fitness membership.

Week 8 Start~

I really haven't been on top of anything for a long time. I'm always tired by the time I get home and try to push myself to stay up till at least 10 pm. BF and I are working on a few things along with a bit of help from my therapist.

I got to see my niece today, she is so cute! Cabesa side all the way!

Work is still the same, slow and no sales. It's quite annoying.

Hopefully this week isn't too rough.

Week 6 Complete

Well, poop.

This whole week went by in a blur and not in a good way. So no recap.

Loved that I got to see my Auntie and my cousins though!!

What...

Do you do when you continue to come to the same conclusion regardless of how painful it might be. Not for the chance of someone new, but because you want your own well being to come first before others. To not be dragged down to a point where you start to question yourself on what you believe and think. For the longest time I knew that a clash of thoughts and background would mess with the situation. That the more controlling which could be that of a father or a possessive lover would lead to so much resentment. When the "jokes" begin to stick rather than laugh about. When you bring up what the problem is and it's no ones fault but yours. When you come home from school or work and just want to relax but can't because you have to meet the needs of someone else. I've planned my future when I decided to go to school. I'm fulfilling that plan no matter what, even if I have to be exhausted and hungry to achieve it.

So many thoughts, too sad and tired to think anymore.