Can't wait to sleep!

Today is my second day working for at the Federal Way Costco, I'm at the point where I'm really tired from a 40-50 minute drive and just not being able to sleep at a descent time. I've been overloaded with information yesterday, and today I just want to relax and stare at a tv. I shouldn't but I also don't want to be a trainee who takes a sale from the person training me. I have my own odd morals and the people here look at me funny because I'm not cut throat. Besides I'm still unsure of what to do to finalize the sale. As far as I understood its easy on the computer then there are papers also involved. I want my trainer to make another sale today to show me. Yesterday I really regretted leaving the Shell but I'm going to try and get this to work. If not then I'm screwed.

This month has been really rough financially. We signed up to skip a payment at the bank but I guess something went wrong and we had to pay $35 twice. We won't make enough for rent so I'll have to take some of my financial aid money to complete that. Then we also got our Internet shut off, so we'll be canceling it and go without until we can afford it. I'll have to stay after classes to do anything if its online.

Life is poopy right now!

Merry Christmas!

So for Christmas Eve, I didn't get to spent much time with my family but I did go to a wedding. My Uncle Mike, my dad's brother, married his partner and the were very happy. I was excited because I'm just so proud to witness a huge stepping stone in the family. We didn't get back home till late but I really enjoyed spending time in Vancouver and Portland.

I wasn't able to sleep very well last night but I got enough to get up at a proper time. Santa visited and I was supposed to be asleep for my Christmas morning surprise. He got me a red Keurig, he wanted to wake me up with a hot chocolate. But it would have woken me up anyway, light sleeper. I also got Fifty Shades of Grey and Catching Fire, I got a few other things but those were the main gifts of the morning between me and my BF. After that we kind of had to do a run around between the 2 families. Mine usually does Christmas Eve at midnight, the BF's is all day Christmas Day. But due to the wedding things had to be shifted around. It's been very eventful and I got extremely tired. Highlights of my day were seeing BF's über excitement from my gift to him, and baby-cakes with her coat that we bought her.

All in all, great Christmas!

**will add pictures when Instagram works again!!

Long days

It's my second day of work after about a week of laying in bed. Feeling my back more now. I am liking the fact that I get to watch tv but I need to know how to sell badly. I get so lost and my brain doesn't want to retain knowledge that isn't important. I'll have to do some training in Federal Way but its rough. I have no gas and I don't know where I'm going. If anything my boss is awesome because he is feeding me. I feel bad though so I'll pay him back with interest.

Back home

Well, the weekend went by quickly. Feel a bit bad for not doing much but in the long run I feel better health wise. We are still making our way back home and traffic is rough. I'm excited to be in my own bed because the fold out sucked. Got a few things from Lush that I am happy about. Wasn't please to have a dog with us because he smells awful. Did get a few chapters of reading done. Started Hunger Games and I'm not hating it.

Back to life I guess...

Whistler Trip #2

Yay! Currently only downside is we woke up early and our ride is late. They may still be sleeping. The plan was to leave at 9:30 am, we can't get ahold of either one of them.

I'd say excitement has diminished a bit.

*edit*

We made it safe and sound. Our friends decided to take their German Shepard along and though he is a good dog, we have spent a bit of fun time worrying. I don't really care either way. I've already missed out on a few fun things because I don't want my sickness to get worse. I was however, able to go and have a drink with them tonight. I had Pomegranate Cider. It was interesting but like all alcoholic drinks I get tired of them half way through and stall. I really don't care for drinking that much. I feel like a party pooper but I would rather get well and enjoy what I can than get worse and start my job on that same note.

Oh, I don't remember if I said anything, and I'm too lazy to go back and check my previous posts. I quit the Shell job and got a job at Costco selling Dish Network. $10 an hour plus commission. I'm excited and I certainly did not feel any regret leaving Shell. I'm just really tired of people who come in with a stick up their asses. It's like that is the requirement to pump gas or something. I loved my cool customers but it really only takes 1 asshole to ruin the day. I'll be glad when I don't have to deal very much with those kinds of people anymore. It'll mainly be the DDS and the reception persons job to deal with BS.

Anyway enough of my little rant. Here are a few pictures of tonight that I was able to get.

Week 12 Complete

Finals are OVER!!!

So I have seen a few of my finals grades and I have come to the conclusion that I am getting B's as my overall grades for the quarter. I am upset but then again happy that I passed. I will know for sure once the grades come out next week but that is my best guess. Tomorrow I will actually start my Winter Break and be completely happy that it has come.

I will head to Whistler again with my BF and friends this weekend. Trying to get the house all cleaned and proper; that way when I get home I won't have this big mess to deal with.

I should be starting my job next Monday if me and my boss can figure something out tomorrow. I am excited but fretting a bit over the details. I should be fine though, it isn't that hard to stand there and sell things.

I am hoping to start a new hobby during break but it will all depend on what I can learn without emptying my brain of anything else. Wish me luck with that because otherwise I will just be a mess haha.

Week 12 Start

Late again...

FINALS WEEK!!

Currently 3 down and 2 to go. Feeling ok. Just tired and burnt out. Made fudge last night and I have a sore throat now from testing the batches.

*edit*

4 down now. Getting my drug test done and I should be able to go back home to nap!

Week 11 Completed

Last day of instruction with no instruction. Spent the past 3 days working on my own study packets for each class. 19 hours or so of just writing outlines and extra notes, I'm exhausted and need to get some good sleep tonight. I've shared some of my work with a few of the girls I want to continue the program with. I feel accomplished and happy to help them plus it makes for a good review during break. And apparently we are creating portfolios at the end of the program so I'm ahead with these notes. My teacher has been amazed at how much effort I have put into this. I really do enjoy this program and what I'll be doing. I want to do my best and if I'm being recognized for the work I am doing I am happy.

1 more week then I can look forward to Whistler again :)

Week 11 Start

Late yet again.

Monday wasn't too horrible but I did forget a few things for my tests. My teacher hurt her ankle so she wasn't there at the start so our other teacher just passed out the tests. She ended up showing up a bit later and gave the last test. Today she called a few girls and told us all we didn't have class. Doesn't apply to the girls who had clinic, one of them being me. We had 2 missing so it was rushed but good. We got done early as well. 2 girls came to class anyway to practice and study, I just chilled with them until it was time to work out. I over did it today so I feel like poop. About to watch the Victoria Secret Fashion Show!

Week 10 Complete

Which means a review week and then Finals week!

Not that I'm looking forward to it, but it just means the quarter is just about over. This week started out nicely and ended fine. Thursday is what sucked! I completely bombed my instruments test. Not happy at all with it!

Other than that not much happened. Oh, but I got a new job. More information when I can think. Just finished working out so I'm exhausted and I need a shower!

Week 10 Start

Well started yesterday but I forgot to post.

Yesterday wasn't that bad of a day. Clinic at 7 and I assisted a RDH, which for an RDH having an assistant is a luxury I guess. Since they normally work alone. I also was in charge of sterilization. I slept late the night before so having an easy day was great. I also worked out again and had the bike at the second level on interval and went 8.3 miles. I get easily excited by the miles I go but not the calories I burn which for 35 mins is around 150-170, I guess that's not much.

Today was nice. Had a test first thing and it was fairly simple but the last page I screwed up. Then the evaluation went very nicely I guess. Off by 3-4 points which isn't bad. I wish it was that easy for my other teachers class. But then again I know it's her first teaching job so I give her credit for having to put up with a bunch of girls. I did workout today but I knocked off a hill on level 2. I don't think I ate enough or drank enough water because my side started hurting. I know it's also from failing to stretch. I just don't want to be locked in the gym.

All in all so far so good...

Week 9 Complete

Happy Thanksgiving All!!!

This week was only 3 days long so I am happy. Tests were scary but that's about it.

Week 8 Complete

Whoops, forgot to update.

Well I went a week without working out at all. Had Monday and Tuesday off. And came to the conclusion I and averaging B's. Which does not make me happy. I want A's.

Got to see my baby and she's so cute she's starting to pretend to read :)

Week 8 Start

Well kind of, I get an email this morning saying no class today so that makes a 4 day weekend. Which I am happy for! Finally have a break big enough to relax.

Got my hair cut this weekend and it is awesome. Gonna work on dying it red soon. Love being a redhead! I should probably get my gym clothes on because I told the BF that I would still go today. All I need is 30 mins on that bike and I'll still be working on my weight!

Week 7 Complete

Not much to say, think my midterm went well. Evaluations went sucky. Feel like I've cheated myself in a few workouts but I did make it harder.

Week 7 Start

Well, I believe I may have gotten my first 100% on a test but I could be wrong. Today went pretty good considering I was really sleepy and a bit cranky. The test for Jurisprudence was simple. The rest of the day went fairly quick. I hopped on the bike after class and when 8.18 miles and that makes me happy, but sad at the same time. Means I have to bump up my program. For the first time since fall quarter I will have tomorrow off entirely. But I ended up making more plans than I should have! Bad me, bad!!!

Week 6 Complete

Today started off fine, but the whole morning sucked. I had clinic today and my patient came in on time. I had everything set up the day before and felt nervous the whole time. I felt like I was able to do well. We were doing a #12 MOD with Composite. Things were not as smooth as I wanted and I realize I need a lot of work with the 3-way and HVE. I started instrument transfers well, along with the topical and anesthetic. But after the patient was anesthetized, I just lost my confidence and started muffing up. I really do think I may have just been unstable just because it wasn't SAM or Wally. We got through the procedure okay until it came time to put the matrix and wedge. The tooth lost so much structure that the buccal fractured and broke off. We ended up having to do a buildup on the whole tooth. We put a screw and just set up a good amount of composite. I was not as freaked out but near the end I started getting back into a groove. The rest of the day went by just fine except I didn't have much of a lunch and my workout went a bit too hard.

Other than that I have $4 to my name until the 15th.

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween Everyone!

Filled a #30 FO with Filtek Flow as a base an finished off with Filtek Supreme. Our class celebrated Halloween with a pizza party. Was awesome but I should have eaten better. We got to fumble with dental dams again. It's rough on your fingers doing it 3 times and still not getting it right.

Today is my 3rd day of working out, mainly bicycle. Doing it for 30 minutes in intervals setting. Right at the half way point it kills and my legs are dead but I try to push through. Hopefully if I keep this up I'll lose some weight.

Bf and I didn't do anything for today, too much homework for me plus we are tired.

Week 6 Start

Half way into the quarter and its getting tiring. Started working out too, very tired. Explain more another time..

Week 5 Completed

So we are just about halfway with the quarter and I feel like I've been in a fog. Things have been going by so quickly and I haven't had a chance to relax even once. But I can look forward to a few days off this month. I was fairly satisfied with my grades to this point until the test from last week in Chairside. I was doing great until then when I got a 79.6% which I guess for some people is fine, but I'm striving for A's and I won't be happy otherwise. Quite honestly if I were doing this just for myself it would be fine. But since my Grandmother has passed, I am setting my goals high to make as many people proud of me as I can. I know for a fact that no one thought I would ever make something of myself. I was a spoiled brat and hated school. The simple suggestion of wanting to go to college was alien in my life. I'm not even quite sure how it all started but I've come to a point in life where I've set up a checklist for myself and if I stray then I don't deserve to have anyone proud of me. I want to show people that they were wrong to think I wasn't going anywhere. And mainly to rub it in some people's faces. I do have to be honest and point that out. There are a select group of people in my life where I really want to take their words and shove it down their throats and hope they choke!

Now don't get me wrong, all my goals are strictly for me to be satisfied with my life. But you can't only have good intentions in mind to keep it up. For me, it would bring me utmost pleasure to be in a high point in life and help those who help me and not help those who used me. No one can be saintly, and if they say they are, they are lying!

Wow

First day of Clinic and it was not as bad as I was expecting. Because I had talked to my teacher in the summer, I wiggled myself into getting my teeth done. There were 2 patients in the morning. I was one, more like a test subject, for FMX with the new digital X-rays. The other just in for an amalgam. Which turned out to be a whole mess of things. Other than that patient we jut did X-rays for the other 2. We ran out of time but it was interesting. Learned that salt helps the gag reflects. Interested to see what we do next week!

Week 5 Start

Didn't realize I didn't end Week 4. It went well and I found out that this week I would have Clinic on Wednesday.

I've come to the realization I need to buckle down with things. Currently I'm still walking right along my goals for the big picture. While doing that I have been neglecting the small details. With the fact that I go to school full-time and work less than part-time, money has become a big issue. I am overly stressed about my lack of good income and debt rate. Though I know for a fact I can clean the slate next year with my financial aid and tax money, I still feel the pinch. It is also the very taxing on the wallet to go to my therapy and acupuncture appointments. I do not want to stop seeing them, but I want to stop spending money that should be saved. Jon and I are planning to go to Canada again and I need to have warm clothes or I won't leave the hotel. I went to the bank today to see if I can increase my credit limit to pay off things and be able to eat. I'm crossing my fingers.

Stressed to the max and no outlet :(

Today was...

To be honest, frikken cold!! Need to start getting hot drinks.

Classes are ok but there are a lot of tough things that are popping up. I am worried that I am not doing as well as I want to but my teacher keeps assuring me that I am doing just fine. Clinics start next week along with upcoming Midterms. Need to buckle down this weekend and study hard. I will probably stay late at school just to stay focused.

Loving the Fall season, I just wish it weren't so cold!

Week 4 Start

Well, test was a joke but I think I did ok. Worried about tomorrow's test. Long school day though.

Acupuncture went nicely, got a few minutes of shut eye but still tired. And I'm really happy because my Papa is back, with my Auntie and Cousin!

A homicide...

Friday night there was a stabbing across the street. Saw EMTs doing CPR. The next thing I see is a tarp and the roads being closed. Hard to think that something so bad happened so close by.

But other than that I had a good week! Turned 24 on Wednesday and got a raise at work. Good times.

Week 3 Start

Its starting to get real, we are working on so many things that it is just crazy. I am trying to keep up but I get confused as to what class I am in and what we are doing that day. I know it isn't just me but it helps when I look at my planner to know the schedule. Still working on coming up with a grade tracker since my app is now useless. I need a nap...

Small changes

Not to many but enough to where I feel a lot better. Thanks to Katie I have changed some parts of my diet for the better. Working in lots of protein and fruits. Still need vegetables but its a work in progress. I had better focus and not as many highs and lows in my mood or energy. Weekend are still a bit sketchy but it's more so because I work and Oly Burger is in the store. I am missing having days off.

I go see the acupuncturist tomorrow so that will be interesting again. Nap time haha

Week 2 Complete

I have to say that this week went a bit better, even if there was more information. I've slowly upgraded my organization skills and have a fine group of women who lend me a hand if I need it. We practiced quite a few things. Plenty of hands on material and a few coloring worksheets.

I can't quite remember if I mentioned the girl in my class that talks nonsense, and I'm not about to go back at my posts if I did. It just seems to be getting worse. Our teacher has now come to the point where she ignores her and she still talks. The other girls are trying to put up with it but are complaining to the teachers. Some girls are inching towards having a confrontation with her. Mind you this is only week 2! I do sympathize with her, but she is milking that victim card every time she vents to me. I've said before, I know I have, that there are a few people who get under my skin and she is fast becoming one of them. I can't take proper notes and we don't get to go through all the material for class. There is a lot to learn and I fear we aren't going to get it all if she continues.

For the first 3 weeks, group A has Fridays off. But today our teacher called in for a CPR/First Aid class to update or give those who need it. We have to have current ones that will last through the program. The firefighter who came was a great teacher. He powered through everything, mainly what was realistic in our field. Then another firefighter showed up to help with the learning process. Man oh man was he eye candy. Course me and my silly self focused on learning than being gaga over the guy. I was able to get a few good glances in. I got dropped off so when we finished I had to wait for my BF to get off work. I could have walked home but it's getting cold out and the last thing I need is to be sick. So for the 3 hours I was there I was able to organize what homework was due for what classes and days. I am caught up for Monday and most of Tuesday. I am actually ahead in some readings and made the cool flashcards for the numbering systems. I think I did well and can relax a bit more. Though I hope I can power through this weekend and get more done. That is my goal by Sunday!

Week 2 Start

It was rough today because I'm still recovering. My nose was bleeding for the longest time, still is a bit. Had a few tests today. Also had to run around the campus. I was able to visit with one of my favorite teachers/friend. Printed out all I needed but might redo a few things. Need to run by Staples for the 4th time. Need supplies for a lab class.

Went to an acupuncturist after school. Not quite sure how I feel about it though. Definitely odd but I think I feel a bit better.

Week 1 Complete

Oh boy, that was rough! I'm completely unorganized. I get all the things we are doing but it is rough. I don't know what class I'm in because there is too much going on.

First Day Complete

Man, that hurt my brain. We have the first 3 weeks of the schedules and I get 2 Fridays off! I am glad I am more organized but it is still going to be hard. I've already started procrastinating, and it needs to stop. Lunches are going to be my saving grace. Glad I have a bunch of awesome classmates to help with everything. Now to try and sleep early!

Fall Quarter Start

Tomorrow is the first day of class. I am both excited and anxious to be going back. I'll finally have my schedule for all the classes and figure out a few things. We already know that for sure one of the girls is not going to continue, which is sad but it happens. All I can hope for is that I'll be safe from either myself or others.

Yesterday night I went to "band practice" and made a few bad choices but it worked itself out. My lovely friend made tomato bread and it was awesome!

Have to try and sleep. Wish me luck!

Some days...

I just want to be an ass to people...

... But I don't.

The End.

Withdrawals?

For the past 2 days I've been feeling really sick and just not right. Lower back pains, nausea, headaches and a few other things. It's been 4 days since I last took my pills and I could just be suffering from withdrawals. It isn't because I'm trying to go cold turkey, but because I have not remembered to take them. Started back up, hopefully I can feel better. Wish me luck?

Unbalanced

Yesterday and today were fairly good days I suppose. I got to get most of my errands done and hang out with my sister. She's getting more and more awesome by the day. She really is a good kid, just wish I could get to know my brother as good as I'm getting to know her. He just sticks to his video games. We opened my dental kit to find my dental model. It was fun playing with a fake mouth. I'm excited for school to start. I can not tell you how worried I was when I saw that my tuition was not paid yet on the last day for payments. I went in and there were lines out of the building. Luckily it wasn't as horrible for the financial aid part. Got it figured out and now it says it's paid for.

Today I just stayed in bed. Last night I started melatonin supplements, 3mg capsules. I just melted into the bed. Had to have the BF help me down the stairs to potty. I wouldn't allow myself to sleep if I didn't go first. When I woke up I was refreshed. Felt like I had the best sleep of my life. So much so that I really just wanted to do nothing and relax more before the real world started to kick in. The day went by quickly though. I hung out with a friend for about 20 minutes or so. Then spent some time with the BF. My night just didn't work out so well. He sure knows how to make a girl feel so insecure about herself, I think he doesn't realize it. So much so that I may not go back to Canada with him this winter. And though I do love him there are just times when I want him to realize, though it would hurt me, it wouldn't be hard for him to lose me. I realize that I do not have the body I did when I met him, and I have been taking better care of myself. He still has it in his head that skanky sticks are hot, and rounder girls just need to lose weight. I'm willing to bet that if I do lose the weight and dressed like what he wanted he'd soon realize I was fine the way I was because when you add alcohol to me, I become an attention whore and snuggle up to people. I don't know, guys are all jerks. I just wish he would realize what he does on his own rather than me constantly reminding him that words do hurt. I guess that's all I wanted to say really. Night all.

Back home

Kinda sad to leave Canada. But know better for next time! We'll be going back sometime this winter! I'm real excited about it.

Day 2

Slept in again. We had lunch at Longhorn Saloon. Went swimming and then dinner at Zog's again. Little bit of a drink at Cinnamon Bear. Then passed out!

*You get it

Day 1

Day went by too quickly napped for most of it.

*again not in order...

Trip Up

Didn't honestly get many pictures because it was dark, got here in about 7ish hours. Long trip but happy to be here!

*gotta love how none of these are loading in order. I'm on my phone.