Unbalanced

Yesterday and today were fairly good days I suppose. I got to get most of my errands done and hang out with my sister. She's getting more and more awesome by the day. She really is a good kid, just wish I could get to know my brother as good as I'm getting to know her. He just sticks to his video games. We opened my dental kit to find my dental model. It was fun playing with a fake mouth. I'm excited for school to start. I can not tell you how worried I was when I saw that my tuition was not paid yet on the last day for payments. I went in and there were lines out of the building. Luckily it wasn't as horrible for the financial aid part. Got it figured out and now it says it's paid for.

Today I just stayed in bed. Last night I started melatonin supplements, 3mg capsules. I just melted into the bed. Had to have the BF help me down the stairs to potty. I wouldn't allow myself to sleep if I didn't go first. When I woke up I was refreshed. Felt like I had the best sleep of my life. So much so that I really just wanted to do nothing and relax more before the real world started to kick in. The day went by quickly though. I hung out with a friend for about 20 minutes or so. Then spent some time with the BF. My night just didn't work out so well. He sure knows how to make a girl feel so insecure about herself, I think he doesn't realize it. So much so that I may not go back to Canada with him this winter. And though I do love him there are just times when I want him to realize, though it would hurt me, it wouldn't be hard for him to lose me. I realize that I do not have the body I did when I met him, and I have been taking better care of myself. He still has it in his head that skanky sticks are hot, and rounder girls just need to lose weight. I'm willing to bet that if I do lose the weight and dressed like what he wanted he'd soon realize I was fine the way I was because when you add alcohol to me, I become an attention whore and snuggle up to people. I don't know, guys are all jerks. I just wish he would realize what he does on his own rather than me constantly reminding him that words do hurt. I guess that's all I wanted to say really. Night all.