Do you do when you continue to come to the same conclusion regardless of how painful it might be. Not for the chance of someone new, but because you want your own well being to come first before others. To not be dragged down to a point where you start to question yourself on what you believe and think. For the longest time I knew that a clash of thoughts and background would mess with the situation. That the more controlling which could be that of a father or a possessive lover would lead to so much resentment. When the "jokes" begin to stick rather than laugh about. When you bring up what the problem is and it's no ones fault but yours. When you come home from school or work and just want to relax but can't because you have to meet the needs of someone else. I've planned my future when I decided to go to school. I'm fulfilling that plan no matter what, even if I have to be exhausted and hungry to achieve it.
So many thoughts, too sad and tired to think anymore.
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